Divine Parenting

Archive for November, 2009

In the Silence, there is a stillness.  The vibrations in the air are different — softer, somehow.  No sound reverberating through my energy body.  No sound in my physical presence.  No sound in my external environment.  No sound in my mind.  Silence.  I need Silence.

When I first had my daughter ever-so-many-moons ago, we could not live in the place where she was conceived, as they did not allow children.  So, we went looking for child-friendly accommodation, and the only reasonable accommodation we could find was a 2-bedroom apartment situated near the downtown of a big city, 1/2 block away from an ambulance station.  We had no idea how this would affect our lives.  Ambulance sirens whirred away at all hours of the day and night, and we just got used to it.  My baby slept right through anything.  I was quite amazed.

Then, after two years, we moved into our own house.  This house was on the very outskirts of the city — I mean, VERY outskirts.  We were the very last house at the city limits, backing onto a farmer’s field, that then led to an army airstrip.  When it was silent, which was really often, it was deafening.  I finally understood that term – silence can be deafening.  I actually had something happen to my ears when there was virtually no sound at all — not the wind, not a car, not a dog barking, no aircraft flying over — nothing.  Nothing.

I think it took us longer to adjust to the silence than it did to the ear-piercing noises we had before.  How strange, I thought.  How very strange.  And yet, after that, wherever I moved, I noticed sound so much more.  I noticed how I closed the windows more wherever I was in order to get away from it.  I noticed how MUCH sound there was — and the noise pollution that was all around.  Whether it was the quiet hum of an appliance, or a roaring thunderstorm — both seemed to affect me no matter what.

In the current busyness of my home life, with so many of us together, it’s hard to meet my need for Silence.  Even if I go to my bedroom for the evening — to read or whatnot — I can’t seem to escape the noises of a busy household.  And I realize that periodically, it is so very important that we have it.  So very important.

Sit in silence, if it’s available to you, and you’ll ‘get’ what I mean.

Piggybacking on the Need of/for Time, I am now working with the energy of the Need for Space.  This need was gifted to me during a point in my life when I was taking back my time, but kept getting interrupted.  Or, I would have my time, but there would be so much stuff going on around me, I felt I couldn’t think.  If I can’t think, I can’t write.  If I can’t think, I can’t plan.  If I can’t think, I can’t progress.  At least, in my Relationship with my Mind, I believe that to be true.

So, even though I took back my time, I didn’t have the space to make the things happen that I wanted to in my life.

When I’m in the kitchen, I need the space to bring to Completion what I started.  In general, I need the Space to get things done.  I need the physical Space between other beings and myself in order to feel Sanctuary.  I need the mental Space to keep myself focused on a project.  I need the emotional Space to process anything moving through me.  I need the spiritual Space to connect to source and the higher part of myself.  I need Space.

Since all the needs tie in with one another, I don’t think you’ll be surprised by the next ones coming up.

Find your space.  Maybe that’s a little room in your house that no one else uses; maybe it’s a spot out in nature that feels really wonderful; maybe it’s an office that you can close the door to.  Find your space.  It’s really, really important that you do.

As usual, this need kind of snuck up on me.  There I was, busy as a bee, doing-doing-doing all day long, not realizing the ‘what’ in the doing.  I realized that some things seemed never-ending, such as keeping up with the maintenance of the household when there are two beings we caregive, and three other adults in the house.  What I didn’t realize was — nothing was coming to Completion.

My household duties were never complete, my babysitting duties seemed never-ending, and nothing was ever in it’s place.  None of my projects were moving forward, action steps taken were not addressed by the other side, and I felt things spinning out of control.

When I sat in the energy of this (after a good cry, of course!) I realized — I need Completion!  I need to see an end to each and every action that I’m taking, and an ending to everything I start.  I need to see others completing as well – a type of accountability for their initial actions.  I also need to stop completing things for others — which has been causing a drain in my energy.

I didn’t realize, until that moment, that I needed to see the crumbs cleaned off the counter when someone in the house decided to make a sandwich without a plate.  I needed to see a dish moved from being used, to being cleaned, to being put back in it’s place.  I didn’t realize, until just then, how many times per day I needed, and still need, Completion!!

I questioned this need because of the relationship factor.  Did I need to see an ending to my relationship?  The intuitive response was – no.  What I need to see is a confirmation of the continuation of the relationship, and THAT brings Completion!  Each time my relationship status is confirmed, I feel a sense of Completion.  With Completion comes relief.  With relief, comes a respite from stress.  And all of this leads to a healthier existence.

Completion.  Who da thunk?