As usual, this need kind of snuck up on me. There I was, busy as a bee, doing-doing-doing all day long, not realizing the ‘what’ in the doing. I realized that some things seemed never-ending, such as keeping up with the maintenance of the household when there are two beings we caregive, and three other adults in the house. What I didn’t realize was — nothing was coming to Completion.
My household duties were never complete, my babysitting duties seemed never-ending, and nothing was ever in it’s place. None of my projects were moving forward, action steps taken were not addressed by the other side, and I felt things spinning out of control.
When I sat in the energy of this (after a good cry, of course!) I realized — I need Completion! I need to see an end to each and every action that I’m taking, and an ending to everything I start. I need to see others completing as well – a type of accountability for their initial actions. I also need to stop completing things for others — which has been causing a drain in my energy.
I didn’t realize, until that moment, that I needed to see the crumbs cleaned off the counter when someone in the house decided to make a sandwich without a plate. I needed to see a dish moved from being used, to being cleaned, to being put back in it’s place. I didn’t realize, until just then, how many times per day I needed, and still need, Completion!!
I questioned this need because of the relationship factor. Did I need to see an ending to my relationship? The intuitive response was – no. What I need to see is a confirmation of the continuation of the relationship, and THAT brings Completion! Each time my relationship status is confirmed, I feel a sense of Completion. With Completion comes relief. With relief, comes a respite from stress. And all of this leads to a healthier existence.
Completion. Who da thunk? 🙂